Can't Kick It...

They told us before we were even on the list that if you have an adoption fall through it is just like a miscarriage. I wasn't sure I believed that since I wasn't the one pregnant, but I think I have changed my tune. Now as my bday gets closer and the due date gets closer I cannot kick this down feeling. I will be 32 next week and I feel way behind. Most of my friends that have kids are expecting their 2nd and 3rd children and the only people I hang out with that don't have kids are single. I was way beyond this feeling before this whole adoption drama happened and now its right back at my front door. I feel so cheated in life. I know things will happen one day, but I have had to tell myself that now for eight years.