Changes

It's Sunday morning, I was wide awake at 5am.  The one big thing that stinks about being a night shifter, my sleep schedule is jacked when I want to be a normal person for a couple of days.  That also means I feel like I have lack of sleep during the day time which is probably why I had a bit of a freak out last night; we are moving in 3 weeks and we have nothing packed or planned or anything.  I generally have anxiety about traveling, moving, or changing aspects of my life....this is going to involve all 3 so yes, I am a bit anxious about it.  Oh and our master bathroom is gutted to the studs still (has been for 3 weeks now).

My current remedy for all of this craziness is to listen to music and dance around the office. In about 10 minutes I am going to go get some dunkin donuts coffee and go to church and pray that God makes the rest of this process fall into place easily like everything else has done so far.  

Despite all of my anxiety, I have this giddy feeling deep down.  I am going to be closer to help raise my nieces and nephews...its the next best thing to having my own children.  Mike keeps telling me he knows we will get our own...he feels it.  I hope that is God talking to his heart even though he doesn't always believe in Him.  In the mean time these 5 will do :)

Ouch!!

I am only 32 years old and I feel like I am 50; what in the heck and I going to feel like at 50?  Since I have diagnosed myself as an emotional eater and gone on this quest to lose some weight I feel like I hurt more; isn't supposed to be that you hurt less?  Anyway when I hurt I just want to veg and eat; it feels better than moving around sometimes  :(  

I made rice crispy bars on Sunday just because...Mike and I ate the whole pan and I feel like I ate more than he did.  What can I say, they are my favorite and they were sooooo good.  Needless to say, I did not lose any weight this last week.  Holding steady at 11 pounds down.  I think getting down to 130 is is pretty lofty goal since I have spent the majority of my life at 140 so if I can get back to that I will never say I am fat again...I am thinking that means no more making rice crispy bars cause this girl can't stop eating them until they are gone!!